huh?

i just got confused with something..or is it me been thinking too much? huh~ demmit..i hate being like this..it just so damn fucking...arghh..even i can't describe it..man its hard..

on a monday evening

she smells something weird..i saw something riotous

i'm so sorry

people do make mistake right..a lots i guess..and somehow i've blew it by letting all out..not supposed to be like this. not supposed to. not not not supposed to. shit! all my anger..my pain..my everything that supposed to remain deep down in me..i shouldn't let it out..it should remain silent..remain unspoken..remain shut..shut! shut! shut! i make everything so complex..complicated..making it worst..i push you too far..i'm so sorry..really sorry.

shit..demmit!

it suddenly slowly fell down my cheek..wet.. i wipe away as it touched my lips.. it hurts inside..really..badly..hurts inside..