huh?

i just got confused with something..or is it me been thinking too much? huh~ demmit..i hate being like this..it just so damn fucking...arghh..even i can't describe it..man its hard..

on a monday evening

she smells something weird..i saw something riotous

i'm so sorry

people do make mistake right..a lots i guess..and somehow i've blew it by letting all out..not supposed to be like this. not supposed to. not not not supposed to. shit! all my anger..my pain..my everything that supposed to remain deep down in me..i shouldn't let it out..it should remain silent..remain unspoken..remain shut..shut! shut! shut! i make everything so complex..complicated..making it worst..i push you too far..i'm so sorry..really sorry.

shit..demmit!

it suddenly slowly fell down my cheek..wet.. i wipe away as it touched my lips.. it hurts inside..really..badly..hurts inside..

in the end we're just having fun

hmm..oke first let me introduce you all with my sweet darlings..farra and pari..ehe..my housemates..my darlings..muaxx..we were just resting for awhile as our foots got tired of the long walk..haih~ so as always i bring along my cam..so automaticly my hand just push the shutter..snap snap snap..ehe..time nih tgh cari kije sebenarnye..ehe..bucan doe duk uma..so out we go and begin our search for jobs vacancies..cam cam borang application kitorg isi..ehe..but we have fun don't we darls? muaxx lurve you guys..

ehem..ehem..pelik

weird doe..there are some weird things i've been feeling lately..and sometimes it makes me just wanna cry out loud..but it would not make me any better..and to tell you the truth i don't even know what it is..almost a week i guess all these weird feeling being linger in my head..but then i just keep it in me..well there is no reason telling people around..they will not understand..it just me with my unstable emotion i guess..like i want something really really bad..then when i almost got it, it just didn't come right..like "do i really want this?"..well i guess maybe i just really don't have the answer..oho..let it remain deep down inside my little heart..ehe

you

confuSed?

for all that i know i'm fAlling in love..

although sometimes its hurt..

but You make it out whEn i'm with you..

you gave me Strength when i'm down..

you mAke me laugh when i'm crYing..

you hold my hAnd while crossiNg the road..

you hold me tiGht when i'm cold..

you touched my heart without even knowing It..

you text my Number when i'm bored..

i love it when you Called my name..

you dial my number when I needed you..

Knowing you makes my heart beats faster..

and for all that..

i love you so..

muaxx~

mish you..

~something to share with~

The Lovers of the Heart

In order to form a more perfect kiss,

enable the mighty hug to promote to whom we please but one kiss

Article 1:

Statement of Love: The Kiss

1. Kiss on the hand I adore you

2. Kiss on the cheek I just want to be friends

3. Kiss on the neck I want you

4. Kiss on the lips I love you

5. Kiss on the ears I am just playing

6. Kiss anywhere else lets not get carried away

7. Look in your eyes kiss me

8. Playing with your hair I can't live without you

9. Hand on your waist I love you too much to let you go

Article 2:

The Three Steps

1. Girls: If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him

2. Guys: If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good

3. Guys & Girls: Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare

Article 3:

The Commandments

1. Thou shall not squeeze too hard

2. Thou shall not ask for a kiss, but take one

3. Thou shall kiss at every opportunity

* Remember *

A peach is a peach

A plum is a plum

A kiss isn't a kiss

Without some tongue

So open up your mouth

close your eyes

and give your tongue some exercise!

Here are a few reasons why guys like girls:

1. They will always smell good even if its just shampoo

2. The way their heads always find the right spot on our shoulder

3. How cute they look when they sleep

4. The ease in which they fit into our arms

5. The way they kiss you and all of a sudden everything is right in the world

6. How cute they are when they eat

7. The way they take hours to get dressed but in the end it makes it all worth while

8. Because they are always warm even when its minus 30 outside

9. The way they look good no matter what they wear

10. The way they fish for compliments even though you both know that you think she's the most beautiful thing on this earth

11. How cute they are when they argue

12. The way her hand always finds yours

13. The way they smile

14. The way you feel when you see their name on the call ID after you just had a big fight

15. The way she says "lets not fight any more" even though you know that an hour later....

16. The way they kiss when you do something nice for them

17. The way they kiss you when you say "I love you"

18. Actually ... just the way they kiss you...

19. The way they fall into your arms when they cry

20. Then the way they apologize for crying over something that silly

21. The way they hit you and expect it to hurt

22. Then the way they apologize when it does hurt. (even though we don'tadmit it)!

23. The way they say "I miss you"

24. The way you miss them

25. The way their tears make you want to change the world so that it doesn't hurt her anymore.....

Yet regardless if you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them ... it matters not.

Because once in your life, whatever they were to the world they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without trace of a sound,

you know that your own life is inevitableconsumed within the rhythmic beatings of her very heart. We love them for a million reasons,

No paper would do it justice. It is a thing not of the mindbut of the heart. A feeling. Only felt.

psstt..ssshhh..

damn bored

just something to let it out..sigh~ so its been exhausted week not because of the studying and all the stuff like that..just something that make my minds wonder all the way to the outer space. although its tiring i keep thinking of it. not because i want to but its just happen..oho..ehehe..(gedixx jap). well i've finished my exam..oho..oh yeah~ so away for awhile for oliday..yay..oliday in my sweet cute small lovely bedroom uhu..that i share with my lovely Yani..lalala~

..;p..

(picture above tade kaitan sebenarnye)

lalala~well just wanna update my blog.. boring actually. hmm..its examination seasons..demmit and i'm not in the mood for it..aarghh. "tak syok" bak kate narin..ehe~ sape suke pon kan kan kan..huh!! and my next paper is on 30th oct..shit on my burfday. ahh..tabesnyer..uhuks..uwaa~

first day raye: kaki bukit, perlis

samat ari raye aidil fitri, maap zahir & batin wat sume..ehe. just wanna wish epi aidil fitri to all. wish your raya will be wicked and colourful this year and not to forget bring a lot of 'det raye' ehe..well my first day raya was in kaki bukit, perlis..my beloved tok's home sweet home. this year raya just as usual nothing special..uhu. oh..forget to mention my tok's 'ketupat duan palas' is what i have waited for in ari raya..ehe (makan ngan rendang daging..sedap woo~). again wishing all a gorgeous aidil fitri.

buka besame Sapi..

buka besame Sapi kat 'My Mom Chicken Rice' kat area bb..aaa..sgt ramai org..tepakse tny akak tue ader meja ag ke tak..tue la sebok sgt window soping..padan muke..end up mkn kul 7.20 p.m. seb beak ader bawak bekalan air..uhu..tapi sume org sgt peramah kat citue..siap tolong pglkan akak tue ag coz ktrg tadapat nasi ag sedangkan sume org da na bis mkn..uhuks..bole laks ajak g soping skali akak meja seblah..klaka..kami bedua je..tapi air na smp 5 oho..buka kat sinie bole tahan la..hmm. tengs Sapi kua jenjalan although 2-2 sgt penat..oho..muaxx muaxx~lurve you darl~

bejalan baek tuk kesihatan..uhu~

aa..suke pacik yg nek beskal tue..oho..cumey..tetb ader beskal di tgh-tgh bb nih..yg maen gitar tue pule memalo laks time Sapi na snap pic..oho.cumey kan? lalala~tapi tak pasti pule ape yg org-org dalam last pic tunjukkan..nampak sangat teruja..uhu..musykil..hmm~

teleng-meneleng amalan kami

something to share with you guys..ehe..saje je nih..sangat bucan tunggu dan tunggu dan tunggu..camnie la jadi nyer..kihkihkih~ time nih ayah tgh moody. so kami lari nek atas lepak kat kusi empuk ag selese nih. then end-up, we clicking the shutter over and over again (menekan punat shutter bertubu-tubi). yah yah yah..camtue la munyik nyer kami menekan shutter tesebot. uhu..

time buka pose

epi sanga'-sanga'(<---cam pelat sket..) ehe..epi sanga' dapat makan after one whole day menahan diri from lapa n dahaga..kihkihkih

after kekenyangan..camnie la kami

buka ramai-ramai ari tue..ada banyak ag pic..tapi nanti-nanti la aku upload..ehe. saja nak letak dalam blog. lalala~ sebenarnyer aku bucan den tatau na watpe..na wat buah melaka cam awal ag. tapela ngk dvd jap..nanti-nanti sambung ag..

muaxx~

psstt..samat ari rayer

the best way to cook

i'm in the mood of 'balik kampung'. yay yay~ mish the smell of my bedroom, my cute little kitten and my mom's cooking and not to forget my dirty laundry that need to be wash..ahaks. lalala~ nothing much to say here. just sharing my excitement of 'balik kampung'..ehe..

.samat ari rayer maap zahir batin.

due to something i refuse to remember

so its been quite sometime..nah i couldn't remember the last thing i post a blog. well this is my new account seen the last one has been deleted due to..well let say i'm suxx at blogging. well there something that i refuse to bare in my mind in my last blog. and for that reason i'm making a new one. uhu..so this is just some inrtroduction of me being numb as i have been waiting for my groupmates for about an hour..demmit! waiting suxx don't you think so?

never look back