huh?

i just got confused with something..or is it me been thinking too much? huh~ demmit..i hate being like this..it just so damn fucking...arghh..even i can't describe it..man its hard..

on a monday evening

she smells something weird..i saw something riotous

i'm so sorry

people do make mistake right..a lots i guess..and somehow i've blew it by letting all out..not supposed to be like this. not supposed to. not not not supposed to. shit! all my anger..my pain..my everything that supposed to remain deep down in me..i shouldn't let it out..it should remain silent..remain unspoken..remain shut..shut! shut! shut! i make everything so complex..complicated..making it worst..i push you too far..i'm so sorry..really sorry.

shit..demmit!

it suddenly slowly fell down my cheek..wet.. i wipe away as it touched my lips.. it hurts inside..really..badly..hurts inside..

in the end we're just having fun

hmm..oke first let me introduce you all with my sweet darlings..farra and pari..ehe..my housemates..my darlings..muaxx..we were just resting for awhile as our foots got tired of the long walk..haih~ so as always i bring along my cam..so automaticly my hand just push the shutter..snap snap snap..ehe..time nih tgh cari kije sebenarnye..ehe..bucan doe duk uma..so out we go and begin our search for jobs vacancies..cam cam borang application kitorg isi..ehe..but we have fun don't we darls? muaxx lurve you guys..

ehem..ehem..pelik

weird doe..there are some weird things i've been feeling lately..and sometimes it makes me just wanna cry out loud..but it would not make me any better..and to tell you the truth i don't even know what it is..almost a week i guess all these weird feeling being linger in my head..but then i just keep it in me..well there is no reason telling people around..they will not understand..it just me with my unstable emotion i guess..like i want something really really bad..then when i almost got it, it just didn't come right..like "do i really want this?"..well i guess maybe i just really don't have the answer..oho..let it remain deep down inside my little heart..ehe

you

confuSed?

for all that i know i'm fAlling in love..

although sometimes its hurt..

but You make it out whEn i'm with you..

you gave me Strength when i'm down..

you mAke me laugh when i'm crYing..

you hold my hAnd while crossiNg the road..

you hold me tiGht when i'm cold..

you touched my heart without even knowing It..

you text my Number when i'm bored..

i love it when you Called my name..

you dial my number when I needed you..

Knowing you makes my heart beats faster..

and for all that..

i love you so..

muaxx~

mish you..